I have never been cool.
Trust me when I say it was never for a lack of trying.
At various stages in my life, I worked so hard on feigning coolness that I'm surprised I didn't have an aneurysm. How many hours were spent trying on a variety of guises to find one that fit, I'll never know. From preppy jock to disaffected loner, I probably tried on more "costumes" than Mariah Carey in concert on Halloween night at The Flamingo.
I'm not going to be too harsh on myself. I've come to realize that much of this past posturing was due to the vagaries of youth, insecurity and a desperate need for acceptance.
Sounds so fucking emo, doesn't it?
These days, I simply don't care enough to give a shit about my relative coolness. I've become a firm believer that the pretense of cool is a facade best left to others. Acceptance of this fact has been very liberating.
I was thinking about this on Saturday night while with some friends at one of NYC's hippest nightspots. As I casually observed the 20-something faux hipster in skinny jeans with a pierced eyelid and dust bunny on his chin, and the slinky anorexic Russian model dancing on the table in her pajamas, I suddenly realized that I was the coolest guy in the room.
Then I caught the eye of a Puerto Rican busboy staring at me with a look of disdain, obviously wondering what kind of douchebag loser pays $22 for a watered-down cocktail.
Like they say, perspective is a bitch.
As I've gotten older, I've come to believe that the only truly cool people left are those who go out of their way to help others, those who are always respectful of differing opinions, and those who never take themselves too seriously. At the end of the day, it's always best to be honest and true to yourself.
Unless, of course, you're an asshole.
In all seriousness, one thing I've learned in my short stint as a father, it's that parenting and coolness should be diametrically opposed. Cool is just simply not a legitimate child-rearing paradigm. Just as I would never want to be considered the Peanut's best friend, I would also never want to be known as "the cool dad."
Kids need love and support and a million other things that have nothing to do with being cool. Like most parents, I'm just trying to raise my daughter to be a smart, polite, sensitive, caring person with her own identity.
At the same time, I realize that being a kid these days is tough. As parents, we're all guilty of taking parenting so seriously that we've removed the elements of fun that should be an important part of every kid's childhood. We worry so much about food, vaccines, schools, sleep, homework, after-school activities---is it any wonder that kids are so stressed out these days? Let's maybe cut them a little slack.
Let's also not forget that being silly, stupid and uncool with one's kid is possibly the most fun ever.
The Peanut and I spend a lot of time together simply being goofy. We hold hands and skip down the street while singing absurdly stupid songs that we've made up. We go to street fairs, eat candy apples and get our faces painted as lions. If we're walking outside and hear some music, we'll have a silly dance contest. And sometimes, we'll put on these absurd costumes just to go to the grocery store for a carton of milk.
My point is that whether you're young or old, single or married, childless or not---there's one important thing that you should always try to remember.
Cool is for suckers.
I think you become cool when you stop trying to achieve it.
It sounds like you're also a cool dad. What's important though is knowing when to stop being cool and start being a parent.
Posted by: Darren | November 18, 2009 at 10:00 AM
Very well said. I think trying to be cool is a rite of passage, especially when we hit our teens. Like you said, that's one great thing about getting older: Not giving a shit if people think you're cool or not. Which is in itself very cool.
Posted by: Pattie | November 18, 2009 at 10:04 AM
And fatherhood is for bad asses. And you, my friend, are a bad ass. This was great. And that photo is priceless.
Posted by: cryitout! | November 18, 2009 at 10:06 AM
I love this post. I always see these disaffected parents at the playground who never engage with their kids and it always saddens me. They're too cool to jump in the sandbox, wear Halloween costumes or paint their faces.
And you're right. Kids need discipline but they need fun too!
Posted by: Lena P. | November 18, 2009 at 10:18 AM
It always puts a smile on my face to come to work and see that you've written a new post. Thanks, MD!
Posted by: Ginny | November 18, 2009 at 10:19 AM
Dude, you're still cool. You always have been.
Posted by: MetroDude | November 18, 2009 at 10:20 AM
Ah, I love this post. I see way too many forty-something parents in SoCal trying to out-cool their kids. Love that picture.
Posted by: Rachel | November 18, 2009 at 10:24 AM
very true. if you try to be cool, you just never are. i wish i had known that as a teenager.
Posted by: beyond | November 18, 2009 at 10:27 AM
Before my son was born, I'd look at the disheveled dads in line at the grocery store and think: That'll never be me. I'll never wear mismatched sweats and flip-flops out! I was walking the dog the other day and saw my reflection in a glass window: 3 mismatched sweat items. I don't have an alibi.
Posted by: Soccer Dad | November 18, 2009 at 10:30 AM
Sure, wait a few years. Then try skipping down a NYC street singing a made-up song. She'll be like 100 feet behind you saying, "Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad!" and acting like she doesn't know you.
I'm not even allowed to put my hands up when Miley sings "Party in the USA." I do it anyway, but whatever.
Posted by: Finn | November 18, 2009 at 10:37 AM
but your hair is still very cool
Posted by: wn | November 18, 2009 at 10:39 AM
There is always someone cooler than you. My motto.
Posted by: William | November 18, 2009 at 10:50 AM
I will give you a million dollars if you post a photo of your face painted as a lion!
Posted by: Heather B. | November 18, 2009 at 10:50 AM
I've always loved that you've never cared about being cool. You were like that way before the Peanut was born. That's what makes you so damn cool.
Posted by: LP | November 18, 2009 at 10:53 AM
Most people (yes I'm generalizing, but I think it's true of any age group) would argue that the core of cool is being comfortable as yourself. If you have that quiet self-confidence, that you know who you are and are OK with that person, then you are cool, and people will think you are cool.
Ergo, sir, you are cool.
Posted by: SciFi Dad | November 18, 2009 at 11:05 AM
I definitely agree!! I was exactly the same way and now I have three wonderful kids that I would do anything for.
I just hope my 7 (soon to be 8) year old daughter doesn't get too cool for me in the teenage years. :)
Posted by: A Quick Remark | November 18, 2009 at 11:15 AM
Now see I have to disagree, but then I think we have different definitions of cool. Or rather you and my kids have different definitions. I have a 14 and a 16 year old and they tell me I am cool. I don't try to be cool. What makes me cool in their eyes is our relationship. I treat them with respect. I listen and we talk about EVERYTHING. NO subject is off limits. They know that if they have screwed up they can come to me and I will listen and they can count on me to help them. And they have, and I have.
On the other hand, I am also a complete dork. There is so much evil fun to be had knowing that you have the power to embarrass your children.
Posted by: Carolyn | November 18, 2009 at 11:21 AM
I've noticed this disturbing trend now that my kids are teenagers. I see all these parents wanting to be cool and be best friends with their kids. I don't know why but I see this a lot with mothers and their daughters. Like you said, these are not goals to aspire towards. Parents should always be parents.
Posted by: Kat James | November 18, 2009 at 11:27 AM
"The only true currency in this bankrupt world is what we share with someone else when we're uncool." (lester Bangs, Almost Famous)
And yes, Uncool is the new Cool. Embrace it, brotha.
http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3195/2717876311_bb23322156.jpg
Posted by: Xdm | November 18, 2009 at 12:45 PM
Amen to this post brother.
Being cool is all about perception, determination and being happy with yourself and your chosen cause.
Excellent!
Posted by: Evan | November 18, 2009 at 12:45 PM
I liked this post. It made me smile.
Posted by: Jaime | November 18, 2009 at 01:02 PM
If it matters at all, *I* think you're cool, MD! :) I don't know what kind of parent I am, probably a mean one, which keeps me safely away from "cool mom" territory.
Posted by: Julie Kang | November 18, 2009 at 01:21 PM
My kids think I'm cool. But they are both think that firetrucks are cool too.
Posted by: Daddy Geek Boy | November 18, 2009 at 02:55 PM
"Parenting and coolness should be diametrically opposed. Cool is just simply not a legitimate child-rearing paradigm. Just as I would never want to be considered the Peanut's best friend, I would also never want to be known as "the cool dad."
I love that. Well written, MD. Great post!
Posted by: Trina | November 18, 2009 at 03:27 PM
If there's one piece of advice that I always try to pass on to my kids, it's that they should forget about being cool. It's something we all (hopefully) realize and appreciate as we get older. I wish someone had taught that lesson to me when I was younger. Could have saved me a lot of time and energy.
Posted by: Blake | November 18, 2009 at 03:30 PM
Agreed.
Posted by: Restless Mama | November 18, 2009 at 05:08 PM
I <3 you.
You cool with that?
;)
Posted by: amy sue nathan | November 18, 2009 at 06:38 PM
so .. ure a sucker ?
Posted by: misinterp of cool | November 18, 2009 at 08:38 PM
$22 for a cocktail? That's why I could never live in Manhattan. I'm a $2.00 Budweiser guy myself. Great post, man!
Posted by: JDG | November 18, 2009 at 08:45 PM
Sadly, my kids are 5 and 9, and they already know I'm nowhere near cool. They taunt me with that fact daily.
Posted by: Jessica Carter | November 18, 2009 at 08:47 PM
Am I sensing an incident re: Peanut's non-mermaid costume?
Posted by: HeatherY | November 18, 2009 at 09:27 PM
Cool never dies.
Posted by: papa2hapa | November 18, 2009 at 09:49 PM
Personally what I think is cool is catching up on NPR podcasts after an extended honeymoon and then hearing about METRODAD during the podcast! You probably already know about that though. :)
Posted by: Kim | November 18, 2009 at 10:40 PM
I heard about you on NRP too. Didn't want to say anything because I know how you hate to self promote. Nice!
Posted by: Lexy | November 18, 2009 at 10:50 PM
(Whoops! Obviously meant to type NPR.)
Posted by: Lexy | November 18, 2009 at 10:52 PM
I think confidence = cool. You could be the nerdiest person ever, but if you exude confidence, you're cool. And I don't mean that fake "I'm better than everyone else" confidence. Damn. I just noticed that SciFi Dad already said this. In any case, it seems to me that the Peanut has tons of confidence due to all the love and attention she gets from you. I'm sure it'll carry her through those tough teen years.
Posted by: june | November 18, 2009 at 11:12 PM
No matter how funny or dorky my dad is, he's always cool in my eyes. He's my dad! He raised me along with my 4 sisters! He looked after his younger siblings while he had a growing brood! He had sideburns in the 70s! He nicknamed his best friend "Black Cat" 30+ years ago just because the best friend wanted to be a cool "Black Jaguar."
But the coolest part about him? He never stops letting me know that he loves me, my mom, and my siblings, and we're each others' biggest cheerleader.
You MetroDad, is just as cool as my dad.
Posted by: Gloria | November 19, 2009 at 12:38 AM
You are right. Cool loses all meaning when we have kids. We just don't care anymore, and our definition of the word completely changes anyway. It's not about clothes or cars anymore; it's just about being a good dad!
Posted by: Keith Wilcox | November 19, 2009 at 01:35 AM
"Cool" is when you are ok in your skin... even if that skin sags past your knees and you can't make it past Letterman without snoring. It's like being a pimp who ri-i-i-i-ides even when it's in a mini-van.
Posted by: Maternal Mirth | November 19, 2009 at 01:52 AM
The pretense of cool is a facade best left to others. Amen to that!
Posted by: KP | November 19, 2009 at 07:52 AM
I can't tell you how much I envy your lack of concern about your behavior in public. I was raised by a very self-conscious mom and also had the shit beat out my self esteem constantly by my older brother. I'm pretty comfortable in my own skin now, all in all, but still have some hang-ups that hold me back. I am too self-conscious to really let loose and dance in public. The other day we went to an Oktoberfest thing at a local pavilion. It was just packed with people that the average person would deem to be dorks. I referred to the event later as "Nerdstock". My 5 year old got me to take her out and waltz around to the goofy oompah polka band. About 1/2 way through the dance I became very embarrassed, as I suddenly realized that we were the only people out on the floor, and we were being watched by about 200 pesudo-Bavarian nerds. I kind of wound it down and left the floor. I felt bad, since my daughter was having a great time. I probably should have faked an injury.
We dance like maniacs at home though. I even sing!!! That's one of the great things about being a dad. Kids don't give a rat's ass about cool - at least not the little ones. I'm sure I'll be a dork once they are teens though.
Dave
Posted by: Dave | November 19, 2009 at 08:14 AM
$22 buys me a bottle of cheap whiskey. Although I still pay that much for booze at bars.
I think Hank Moody does a pretty good job at being a cool father.
Posted by: Christopher | November 19, 2009 at 10:55 AM
Hell yes. That is all.
Posted by: Holmes | November 19, 2009 at 12:04 PM
I usually identify and agree with your posts, but not today. I'm too cool.
Posted by: Dadcation | November 19, 2009 at 01:52 PM
God, you're hot....
Posted by: Liz | November 19, 2009 at 02:02 PM
Amen to that -kids these days *are* over booked. I see it all the time at the high school I teach at. My advisees balk at me when I "prescribe" 30 minutes of down time which amount to not learning a single thing and eating chips and watching Sponge Bob. They really do balk at it. I wish more parents would see and appreciate how important it is to have down time and to just "be".
BTW, if you've mentioned it, I missed it, what did Peanut dress up as for Halloween anyway?
Posted by: christina | November 19, 2009 at 03:38 PM
Sorry to break it to you, but I've met you and I am still awash in your unaffected coolness. I love this post. Seriously great one. Thanks.
Posted by: Gray Matter | November 19, 2009 at 04:05 PM
I love this post. My husband and I like to waltz down the supermarket aisles sometimes and I've been made fun of by many friends when they learn of this. You know what? I'm so thankful (little Thanksgiving tie-in there for ya', haha) that we're able to do that. We're in love and enjoying each other. I'm sad for my friends that will never experience that simply because they're too worried about what others will think.
Posted by: Lottifish | November 19, 2009 at 06:28 PM
MetroDad, you "are" cool.
Posted by: Gloria Mc | November 19, 2009 at 07:22 PM
When my wife and I walk around our neighbourhood we point out parents who have lost their cool, most likely in the realization that we have probably lost ours. My guess is some parents just give up and focus all on their kids leaving themselves in the dust. There's some definite sad sights out there though.
http://yaletowndad.wordpress.com/
Posted by: Glenn | November 20, 2009 at 02:39 AM